little changes

On the flight home from my trip (which, rest assured, was not just a boozy bender. i simply don't have the pictures to prove otherwise) I decided to try and map out a better schedule for my daily to-do's.  I devote a lot of time to my kid and what's left over goes to keeping the house in order, and all that entails.  I get a small window of moments between Angie's bedtime and my bedtime to devote to myself.  And if it's a good tv night, then most likely I will have wasted that time doing nothing.  So I picked up my little journal and started writing things down like: resume going to the gym in the am.. or.. get in some reading time before school pickup.

Planning to do things and actually getting them done is not high on my list of priorities these days. 

I wonder though, why I save the last few minutes of time during the day for me?  There are so many minutes in a day, so why not take a few here and borrow a few there so that when the day is done, I don't feel like I've missed something.  The thought behind this was inspired by a little stone.  The other day, I was filling up my dishwasher and I went to close it but the door wouldn't lock in all the way.  I opened it up and inspected the hinges, and I found this:

A heart shaped stone that belongs to neither my daughter or myself.  I held it for a minute and then set in on my window sil next to my colored bottles.  It's not quite aqua, not quite jade.  It found a spot in a place I would never have looked had the dishwasher door not closed all the way.  This little moment in my day changed the way I look at a lot of things.  It's so silly but it definitely gave me some new perspective. 

This is one of our new hermit crabs.  While I was away, I gave instructions to everyone in the house on how to keep these little guys alive.  Sadly, two out of three bit the dust.  Yesterday, I took Angie to pick out some new ones. 

He gave her hand a little pinch.  She was not happy at all.

Comments

[susanna]

I'm glad that you had such a great time in England. It was fun hearing about your experiences there. And it was great to finally (!) meet you in person today. :)

[kristen]

I love your heart shaped stone and I'm sorry that I didn't get to see your photos - which means, we need to see each other (sans kiddies) very soon! xo

[holli]

Oh - that would have made me sad that the crabs didn't make it. I'm sorry. :(

I feel the same way sometimes too - I wonder why I don't leave time for me.. but maybe we can change it at some point. I love that heart - and I love that you've given it significance.

Love to you.

xoxo

[Rachel]

That stone. How weird is that?

It was great meeting you this weekend! I put you in my Bloglines so I can keep track of you now.

[Melba]

It was great to catch up with your posts. I am so proud of you for going solo to England! ~ that takes so much guts! You really can do & have anything you want & focus on!