she told stories

taking care in times of tragedy.

Do you know how to take care of yourself in times of tragedy? When the weight of the sadness of the state of the world feels heavy in your soul. When the actions of a few touch and affect the lives of millions. When the world feels out of balance.

Honor the wound, feel the pain. It is more than ok to feel the weight of the sadness. Beyond the issues at the forefront of these tragedies is our humanity. We feel compassionate pain for the families of the innocent people who lost their lives senselessly. We pray for their souls to find peace. We feel. And then we are left to sift through the aftermath which is oftentimes layered in hate and blame. 

I do not want to tread those waters here. I don't know what the "right" answers are or if what I'm saying is "pc". What I do know is that collectively we all feel the sadness of these losses and our hearts are heavy with grief.

Today, I want to ask you this: how do you take care of yourself in times of immense tragedy?

Do you shut off the tv or your social media?

Do you gather with your beloveds at home? in your place of worship?

Do you spread love?

I believe the only way we will be able to heal going forward is to spread love to our fellow man.

And maybe we are not even in a place where we can reconcile what that looks like.

Take care, dear one. Gather your tools that will balm the wound you're feeling.

Share some love with your people, with a stranger, with yourself.

Rage, cry, writhe, and shake it out.

Or just be with the silence if that's what you need.

There is no "right" way. Just feel through it. Allow it to be. Give it a name. 

Being silent about it or stuffing it away is a temporary band aid.

This feeling cannot hide in the dark.

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I love you.

xo B 

i listened to my body

i will come back to write all about all things fire circle at soulodge. i promise. just not today.

today i need to tell you that i listened to my body. i consulted with a darling wise soul who told me things about being selfish and gave me a specific set of instructions to follow, should i feel called to follow them, and i do. i am ready.

i listened to my body. she cried out in shame. in hunger. she was thirsty, famished, and tired.

there is a place i want to live from. it is a starting point. i had a hundred and one ideas on how to get there from the exiled place i was living in.

do you know when you 'know' something? it's like that truth resides in you and you are aware of it but you just haven't tapped into it ... but then you do and then you know and there is no fucking going back now? that.

that is the part i'm afraid to tell you about. because now i have to reserve a lot of what i know and just. live. it.

there is no 'getting there'.

we are already there.

embody the place from which you want to live.

there. i refuse to give you more.

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the struggle is real, dear ones. there are women online selling magical secrets that unlock all aspects of self love but yet they refuse to show their bodies, teeth, necks, living spaces in photos. i have observed this and hand to God i bear no judgement inside of this observation. their struggles lend a layer of truth to my experience. i walk alongside you knowing that you simply cannot help me. i see you over there living in the struggle. i trust you will tap into the gold mine i happened upon when you are ready.

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Right now, my Holy Hush has begun. I am reflecting, living, and dreaming alongside a sweet group of women this month. The registration closes tomorrow.

If you are interested in joining us but you are still not sure, here is our day one work. Have a look. If it speaks to you, come over here to sign up.

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Hey. I love you. Today is all about one foot in front of the other.

xo

winner. travel. rest.

Thank you to everyone who entered the giveaway on my last post. We have a winner: Grace! She said:

"This sounds just what I've been looking for! Fingers are crossed!"  I'm so excited for you, Grace :)

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I'm packing for my trip to Redmond, OR where I will spend a week with sisters in community at Soulodge. Being there last year broke me open. All of the changes I've made since then stem from the experience I had there. This year I'll be sharing some experiences on my SnapChat. Follow me there: starin.atstars + my Instagram @cirovicbella

I'm super excited for my perfume oil workshop. I'll be sharing pics when I come home!

And ... finally ... We begin The Holy Hush on July 1. The first batch of altar tins are going out in today's mail. {They are tha bomb}. I'd love it if you could join us. Click here for more info.

I'll be back here next week. Be well. xo